I hate when I leave my job feeling powerless. It's literally one of the worst feelings in the world...
I use this blog as an outlet for now to vent my frustrations about my job; please don't misunderstand me.... I love being a nurse. When I make a difference, the physicians work with me, and my patients are actually decent people who aren't abusing me (physically or playing mind games) then it's the best damn job in the world.
Today was hellacious. I constantly feel like I'm 'punished' because I work quickly and get my shit done. The charge nurse could obviously see I was running my ass off with situations going on with my patients... and gave me a sixth post-op patient when all the other nurses on the unit had four peeps.
Then, I had a patient who stated she felt unsafe going home to her spouse... alluding to abuse/a volatile home environment. She also had significant anxiety and depression; the surgeon who was her attending physician totally blew me off when I suggested a psych consult so she could be evaluated and have an outpatient treatment regimen set up. Then the case manager blew me off saying it would probably fall through the cracks because she is just too busy. This patient's spouse hadn't called her once or come by since she was admitted for the past four days. I don't know that she has a home to go to when she's discharged.
And pretty much I felt like I was the only who cared...
and maybe I was.
I was really damn irritated for the rest of the day.
My amazing friend Kristen met me for a beer after work
and that was probably the best therapy for a crushed soul...
just laughing about stupid things and talking about
our passions.
Today I spent the whole day studying for a stats
test that is tomorrow.
I really hope I pass.
If I don't I'll be superbly angry.
However... one month till I leave for Italy! I can't wait!
I have got a lot of really exciting things happening in my life right now... so even though work has got me down lately
it doesn't even remotely negate all the good stuff in my life.
(Prickly pear cactus that I thought was amazingly pretty. Love Arizona springtime!)
